Wednesday, March 25, 2009

This coping thing is hard

It's been over 3 weeks, and you would think that I would be getting the hang of coping by now, but I'm really not. I don't know...sometimes I'm great. Sometimes I'm happy. I've even laughed at silly stuff with my friends and my kiddos and my hubby. But sometimes, it just all seems so bleak. I miss Jude so bad. I even miss being sick and pregnant. We went out to eat the other night, and it seemed like every woman in the restaurant was pregnant. It made me sad. I'm trying so hard not to be jealous of other people, but it's hard. Hopefully, the coping thing will get easier with time, but for right now, I almost feel like I'm fighting a losing battle.

1 comment:

Olivia Michal said...

Tonya, you're not really supposed to be good at coping, friend! What happened sucks and you have every right and reason to grieve and it's also okay to laugh and be silly. You have enough to deal with without throwing guilt about your feeling on top of it all. I'm still praying for you and your family! Many hugs!